The drake hatch

The Drake Hatch

I don’t want to go to heaven, we don’t belong there. 

I want to walk outside in a snowstorm, beating winds and intense frequency

I want to run until my legs give out

I want to look into brown eyes by the bare light of golden embers

I want to watch a hawk sail overhead

I want to teach you how to sing so we can sing together, harmonize and link our thoughts

I want to watch the world turn uncaring, watch the stars blink in loneliness and feel the gentle beating of my heart  

I want tumbled ruins that echo light and sound in evening

I want echoes in the cathedral vault of oscillating sky

I want to watch a field of asters overturn and seed the cloudtops, a torrent of flowers and sun

I want to close my eyes and smell the river’s edge, stand on cobbles and dark sand always moving

I want that expansive knowing, the feeling that there is so much I will never learn,

An ocean with no shore.

Have you seen the drake hatch?  A million wings in unison in June? It is everything.

The air shimmers like static and repeats forever. 

when I die I want a blanket of ochre,

I want a stone of perfect color and my legs held to my chest

and my arms wrapped in pine boughs and a single flower.   

Is it so bad to want to be nothing at all? The way everything is, like eternity?

Let the drakes hatch unhindered by that wild river,

Watch them shimmer and be gone again.